Night and day, while the resurgent threatening past was making a conscience within him, he was thinking by what means he could recover peace and trust — by what sacrifice he could stay the rod.

日日夜夜，当死灰复燃的威胁性过去在他心中产生良知时，他在想他可以用什么方法恢复和平与信任——通过什么牺牲，他可以保持杖。